Introspection: the power of looking within.
How to change your life by getting real with yourself, first.
Think back to being a kid and being afraid of a “monster” in the dark corner of your bedroom. When the lights are flicked on, that monster is exposed to be nothing but a pile of old clothes, and fear shifts to acceptance of was right in front of us all along.
I believe, we should also apply those same tricks to our own inner shadows. To shine light onto the dark corners of our hearts and minds with love and acceptance of what’s in front of us.
For the ten years prior to having kids, I diligently checked off all the boxes:
undergraduate degree ✔
travel ✔
time with friends ✔
graduate degree ✔
dream job ✔
meeting the love of my life ✔
becoming pregnant ✔
<Pause the box checking.>
I knew that I no longer saw a future working 40-60 hour weeks in management consulting. I <thought> I wanted to give my child the experience of a stay at home mom, as both mine and my husband’s moms had done. I was continuously reminded what a benefit this would be for him/her.
So I quit.
I had my baby and after my year of maternity leave was over, I didn’t return. I watched as my friends went back to work and days became more and more isolating.
My baby was becoming less of a baby and thus required more entertainment. He didn’t nap that much, and between keeping up with him, the house and supporting my husband in his entrepreneurship journey … the days grew very long. When I fell pregnant again, I knew the life I had looked back on was really, truly over.
And the honest truth was: I was starting to break.
I was losing sight of the woman I left behind. I felt jealous of other women. I regretted my choice to be at home and felt extra drained because of my pregnancy. Everywhere I looked, I saw other women taking action on their mommy blogs or side hustles. And I. just. didn't. have. the. energy.
When my second child was around 8 months old: I hit the proverbial wall. Anxiety; depression; loss of self. I had nothing outside my family, and I was not fulfilled. I looked through old journals that spoke of “spiritual crisis”. My life lacked meaning and purpose beyond taking care of babies.
That was, until a massive panic attack woke me out of the blue. It was as if the Universe was shaking me by the shoulders, screaming at me to find myself again.
So, I chose to get out a light. I needed to get honest to heal.
I went through therapy. Birth trauma healing. Shamanic healing. Reiki. I fell in love with Kundalini yoga. Developed better boundaries. Kept the promises I made to myself.
But most of all: I started taking action. I started to shine the light toward my big scary dream. The one I used to tell friends when I was 20 years old and they sidled up to tell me their life story at a party: “I should be a life coach”.
Well, two years, one certification, and long pandemic, and 18 clients and counting later: I’ve made it! And I want the same for you.
Believe me when I say: NOW, not tomorrow, is the perfect time to shine light and take action in your own life! Take my virtual workshop: Back to You in ‘22 to accelerate the power of YOUR inner growth.
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